Get Out of My Way or I'm Gonna Shove

just about what I expected

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 13:00:34 GMT

so this morning joe woke me up at the crack of dawn yelling at the cat to get the fuck out of his room, made a bunch of noise, then turned on his stereo for his dog and left... finally I just had enough and was like, look dude, this passive-aggressive hostility thing, I'm pretty much over it so if you don't like it here, you can find another place to live.

Which got the reaction I about figured, he called me up, called me some names (prima donna? weird choice. like, I know I'm irritable and egotistical but I figured since we don't actually spend any time together and my personality has no bearing on our day-to-day living since we see each other for a grand total of 10-15 minutes a week), demanded his ferret cage back (like I wouldn't give it back to him? yeah, cause I'm totally that person), said what the fuck was with the cat being there, and then hung up on me. I didn't realize he'd hung up so I was saying, man, if you'd even just mentioned some of this stuff I'd have been more than happy to talk about it with you... but then I realized the line was dead. He said something about how I react to his dog, which... well, the dog pees on the carpet virtually EVERY time it comes up to me and sits down, so naturally I don't want it to come up to me and sit down. But it's not like I said anything. I didn't even really say anything when he brought the stupid thing home in the first place (without consulting me, btw). Given that, it's a little ridiculous he'd even say a word about the cat. So he basically had a kiddie temper tantrum on the phone and displayed his total inability to communicate like an adult, and he'll be out by the end of the month. Doesn't look like there's much I could have done to avoid it... I just hope he doesn't do anything shitty before he leaves, like break stuff or vandalize things or take shit.

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 15:40:30 GMT

So I was feeling kind of burned out monday, I had an exceptionally long week coupled with not really having had a weekend the previous week because of the long drive to alabama (go figure that it takes a long time to drive all the way across the country, eh?). I didn't particularly feel like working and did a small star on the back of a girl's neck at the beginning of the day and wasn't super interested in doing a lot more, I was just really tired and wanted to go home and sleep. So spanky, chris and I went to get lebanese food and when we get back, there's a lobby full of people and marty's gesturing at some women in the lobby who want to get tattooed and immediately I have this inward sigh of "ugh I have to do something instead of eat this delicious food I just got" but I didn't really not want to work at all that day, so I came up and started talking to her, a middle-aged woman and her daughter, very nice people. She'd been thinking about getting a tattoo for a long time but just decided to kind of randomly that day. She wanted a cherry blossom branch, so I went and quickly drew one for her and came back and she was really happy with it, saying it was exactly what she had in mind. Now here's the really cool part about this: She'd had a double mastectomy after having had a lumpectomy a while back, after watching her mother die from breast cancer that spread to her lymph nodes. She'd had one removed, and then later the other but by the time they found it in the other it'd already spread. so she just pre-emptively got them both removed, along with four lymph nodes. they didn't find it in the lymph nodes, but did in both breasts, so pre-emptively removing them significantly prolonged her life! She opted out of reconstructive surgery because she just didn't feel the need for it, and the cherry blossom branch (which can be symbolic of female strength) was going to go right underneath her scar as both a memorial and a symbol that no matter what our society conveys, you don't need breasts to be a woman.

When she sat up and saw it, she just smiled and got up and gave me a hug, and it was just really one of the best things I think I've done. The tattoo turned out well but being able to do something like that for somebody is honestly one of the best gifts doing what I do gives me. Being able to do that for people means more to me than any amount of social psych research I ever would have done and I could write a hundred papers about what it means to be a woman nowadays and how we can achieve personal strength and it never would have come close to that. No matter what bullshit I put up with day-to-day and how many people come in who want some OE lettering on their neck or something, getting to have experiences like that make it constantly amazing.

arg

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 14:24:39 GMT

why is it so fucking hard to find customer service numbers for places anymore? NO I DON'T WANT TO SEND YOU AN EMAIL AND WAIT FOR THE ANSWER. Especially when it's *about* my phone in the first place. C'mon, phone place! have some services that actually involve using your device for TALKING.

Good riddance, upstage!

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 18:16:25 GMT

I think today I get to get a new phone, this'll be my first cell switch-up since this last one was my first cell phone, I held out a long time on that one... My phone keeps a little dictionary of my weird word-usage for texting, so, in honor of my about-to-be-felled cell phone, here are some highlights:

(.)(.)
4-way
8==D
acetylene
alienware
appendages
Argh!
ass
asshat
asshole
autoclaves
AWW!
back-of-the-car
barbell
batman
batman-themed
beer-soaked
beering (making up verbs :p)
befuddling
bitchin'
Bleh
BLEH
blowjob
boffing
bonehead
boobs
breakfart (this was a typo and I'm sure I meant to type breakfast, but it's hilarious)
buckshot
bullshit
Caduceus
car-eating
closetcase
clusterfuck
cocksnot
crime-fighting
d-bags
dawg
de-blooding
deathmetal
depress-fest
dicked
dickhole
dicking
dog-infested
double-dare
douche
douches
(how is douchebag not in here?)
duh
duhnuhnuhnuhnuhnuhnuhnuhnuhBatman!
d'oh!
effed
emoticon-ese
eye-elbow (what the fuck was that all about?)
fibonacci
frankenstein
freakouts
freakshow
aaaand: Fuck fuck fuckin fucking Fucking fucktard
geeked
geekery
giggity
growl-fest
gummy
gunshy
Gwar
heartbreaking
heartworm
hillbilly
hookups
Jeebus
jerk-y
junk-bands
key-turning
landmine
lederhosen
leprous
man-filth
mandelbroccoli
mandelbrot
meat-juice
micromanagement
misbehavin'
moping
n-bomb
Neumas
new-fangled
aaaand some fun nons - non-functional non-meat non-relationship non sequitr non-suck
Overlord
overtness
OWWWW
passive-aggressively
pasties (the meat-pie, not the nipple cover)
Pff!
pillowfight
pinup
piss/pissy/pissed
podunk
poledancing
polyamorous
popsicles
powerfisting
preternaturally
puker
Punisher
quandry
redneck
repo'd
rugburn
rutabagas
s.o./Jesus (once again, wtf was that referring to?)
self-serving
shitbag
shitfaced
shithole
shizzle
slobbering
slow-ass
snarky
sneak-attack
spiderman
squid-cow
tapeworm
thwomped
tick/parasite
toenails
trampstamp
troma-style
U.P.
ukele/kazoo/keyboard
unclothed
undead
underquoted
unironic
urine-sprinkler
utilitkilt
vasectomy
vaseline
wah (as in holy wah, eh)
wanking
wind-up
wmtubored
wonky
worst-smelling
Yoink!
yucky-roommate
zombified

there you have it folks, if I ever publish a dictionary of things you'll hear in a casual conversation with me, this'll pretty much be it.

why is it...

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:16:08 GMT

... that whenever I try to draw anything related to a human shape my hands turn into ten thumbs made of jello?

I ate the headlights out of my car and now I glow at night

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Fri, 15 May 2009 17:50:11 GMT

Just kidding. I don't have a car.

BUT

if that got your attention...

Tomorrow @ Papa Pete's, courtesy of PEND Suspension, Tattoos by Andrew, Body modifications by Chris and Art and Soul Tattoos, there will be a suspension show with live music by Our Fate in Hell, Our Teeth Will Be Of Lions, Ghosts of the Great Lakes and more! It's going to be great time, so come out and help us make this the party of the year! Doors @ 8:30.

<3 Katrina
Art and Soul Tattoos

closing doors that shouldn't ever have opened

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 18:04:26 GMT

All the times you asked me if I was disgusted by you and what you did, the answer was yes.
I wanted to be a good person and think that all lives are worth living no matter how fucked up they get.
Taking a sharp rusty knife to the hands that wanted to help you or at least tell you thinks might get better for you someday made me change my mind.
Assuming everyone that is an adult is capable of reasoning and rational behavior is a mistake.
It's not that I don't have sympathy for those that are not capable of it but sometimes, above and beyond having serious mental health issues, some people are just assholes.

You got what you deserved and I'm glad you're gone, and I hope you never get a chance to scare, antagonize and hurt anyone the way you did me ever again.

http://www.dailypress.net/page/content.detail/id/511151.html

relaxed slow days are a good way to end the week

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 19:03:35 GMT

my first two appointments took me nowhere near as much time as I booked them for, the next three was a group of women who bullied me into trying to fit them in in about an hour and a half, which was in no way physically possible but the mother of the group (who wasn't there yesterday when I got talked into writing them in) called and rescheduled for next week when I told them I didn't have anything booked at all. *whew. Also relieved because the second appt. was someone I was sort of dreading seeing again because when he left, his graywash clouds looked WAY darker and choppier than I thought they should have, but when I saw them they actually healed out fine, and he had someone do the other side and it looked way shittier and was almost healed, so... yay!

Gradually working my way up from week three of the couch to 5K program, I've decided to start skipping the five minute brisk walking warmup and just do like a minute or so, 5 minutes of walking just seems sooooo long. I actually get antsy and think, "C'mon, I just wanna get to the running" [eek]. I didn't need to add any walking time to the official guidelines last night and I actually added a minute of running onto the last interval and increased my average speed slightly. The other day I took a break from the program to see how long I could continuously run for, and it was longer than before I started... not a lot longer, but... progress is progress. I picked up some decent running shoes and that made a lot of difference. Once I get my Neumas rockin and my half-leg-sleeve (sleeve doesn't really work there, what the fuck would you call it? half-pant? I dunno) looks better maybe I'll get some shorts or something too. I don't really feel weird at the gym because there are a shitload of fairly heavily tattooed people that go there, including max from Body Armor. I only ran into him a few times though, I think we go at totally different times.

I got an appointment with sean herman for the end of july (http://www.seanherman.com/ - check it out! Do it!), I'm very excited =) he books a good bunch of months in advance. I met him at the Hell City convention in Columbus last year, very nice guy. I'll be at Hell City again this year, actually getting some work done on my hands, my big committment piece :p no turning back after that one since it won't be hide-able. eek! :p

...but if she did she'd have had a lot more fun.

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 01:54:57 GMT

So I got into a conversation with sean today about the proper plural for the word 'penis'. I maintained that it is 'penes', the latin-style plural, and he maintained it was 'penises', the english-style plural. Just in case anyone was wondering, as it turns out either one of those is technically acceptable. English is such a fun, garbled mish-mash of language rules, I love it.

Seattle is beautiful and despite the fact that I only did one tattoo while I was out there and it was trade for a mullet-trim (short-haired ladies you know what I'm talkin' about) I really enjoyed it. The air is breathable, the people are fabulously friendly and the food is amazing.

My tattoo machines were less enthusiastic about my trip, refusing to make it home in two functioning pieces. I had the choice today of buying new electrics, which would have to have included an additional purchase of a better power supply and foot pedal/clip cord, which are long overdue OR spending a little more and buying a silent medical-grade air compressor and finally using the Neumas that have been patiently waiting in my toolbox since I bought them in August. I went with the latter, time will tell if it is a wise investment. I won't bore people with the pros and cons of the two systems unless someone really wants to know.

I went to the gym for the first time in a week yesterday after a brief vacation-related hiatus. It was difficult running after not doing it for a week but I finished my routine, which at this point is the week 3 running schedule for the couch-to-5K program. Still going pretty well, right now it's 90/90 run/walk, 3min/3min run walk, all that 2x. so... really less running than I was doing before but starting to go for longer stretches. I bought a pair of decent running shoes because my vans really weren't cuttin' it, and totally not good to run in. the next stage of the whole program is quite a big jump, lots more running so I'm going to hang where I'm at for a minute. It makes my calves sore, I'm really seeing how much my body is not built for lots of running, so I'm thinking maybe I'll try working my way up to being able to run a mile continuously and then calling it quits and just starting my workouts off with a mile run, maybe? We'll see where it ends up.

marilyn monroe didn't marry henry miller...

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 16:18:39 GMT

last night I started week three of the couch to 5k program, which is 90 seconds of running, 90 walking, 3 minutes running, 3 minutes walking. technically this is less running than I was doing previously but it's in longer stretches, which is the goal I'm working toward and what the program is also trying to do. I'm also trying to increase the average speed I'm moving at. It's a challenge for sure, but I feel really good. I need to pick up a new pair of running shoes though, my vans aren't cuttin' it :p I didn't really think about it til last night when my ankles and shins were sort of sore. Feels a little like my feet are rolling inward. So I need to do that soon.

I'm going to seattle next week for work and to visit some friends, that should be cool. I've never been there before.

Everything else is awesome =) well, not quite everything, but... everything important.

further from the couch

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 06:49:02 GMT

movin' on up from 'week one' stage of the couch to 5k program. after the 5 minutes of walking there are 8 intervals of run/walk, last time I did 6 intervals of 60sec running, 90 sec walking and two 90/60. This time I did 3 intervals of 60/90 and 5 of 90/60. maybe next time I can do the whole thing 90/60! that's what officially qualifies as the 'week two' stage, I"m not really going by weeks though because I knew each stage would take me a little longer than what they've got.

something something .... something. ... *shrug

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 14 Feb 2009 07:10:59 GMT

as you can see, I'm overflowing with creativity.

picked up running again tonight after taking a night off the gym... I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do what I did last time, but... I actually did better. I figured I wasn't going to be able to just jump to week 2 of the couch to 5k thing and I didn't, but last time I just did the walk 5 minutes, then run one/walk one and a half til you hit 25 minutes overall. I did that up til the 20 minute mark this time but I felt pretty good so I figured for the last 2 intervals I'd run a minute and a half and walk a minute. so I did that once and then I just ran for the rest, the last 2.5 minutes. so for the last 5 minutes I ran 4.5. technically not the way the program works but, next time I figure I'll just do the last 3-4 intervals the 90 sec walking/60 sec running and work my way up from there. exciting, huh?

updates...

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 15:29:00 GMT

work = nuts. but not in a bad way. I think it's post-holiday not-spending-on-others/taxes coming back/weather change... it's nice though, although I am going to say that being suddenly way more busy is making me a little more aware that I'd really like to have at least one person I can rely on a little more heavily for guidance.

I made myself an armrest yesterday kind of like the one andy made, with a camera tripod. That was a really great idea on his part. Mine's red and sparkly. I dig it.

Working out progress: I was talking to my dad on the phone yesterday and he was talking about his torn meniscus, and then he mentioned that both my aunt and my grandmother also have that problem. So I'm thinking I'm going to cap my running at a moderate distance to try and avoid that sort of problem since it looks like maybe my family is prone to it? Does that make any sense, those of you out there that run? or do you maybe have tips on how to avoid that kind of injury in the future?

as far as actual progress, I'm still technically in the first week of the program, which entails brisk walking for 5 minutes, followed by alternating intervals of 60 seconds running and 90 seconds walking for a grand total of 25 minutes. I've done it a few times and can finish it alright, I'm going to do it a few more times than is written on the program before moving on til I'm pretty comfortable. I had to skip my last workout because sean wasn't feeling well and I didn't want to just take his car because the weather was AWFUL. So we'll see where I'm at friday... I hate letting too long a period go in between but sometimes shit happens... The next stage is 90 seconds of running and 60 seconds of walking, which doesn't sound like a big jump but for me it kinda is so I'm thinking what I'm going to do is just keep doing what I'm doing but start switching out chunks of the time, like for the first grouping of running/walking I'll do the longer running until I can't keep up with it anymore and just go back to the 60/90 thing until eventually I can do the whole thing that way and just go gradually. I figure I'm not really on any kind of timeline so no need to destroy myself :p

couch to 5K

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 05:48:32 GMT

so there's this program called couch to 5K, I read about it on a running-related group here that was spotlighted last week. I joined for a minute since I just started running and thought it'd be a good way to get some tips. I found that, so I guess it worked. But the members make a gazillion posts a day and I don't really care that much about running so I ditched it after a day or so.

So I've NEVER run. EVER. I couldn't run when I was a kid, couldn't run in high school... couldn't finish the dreaded mile. not even half of it. Running has just never been my strong suit, I'm really more built for swimming. BUT... last june I started on this whole campaign to change my habits around, eat better and work out... I've drastically changed my eating habits, and in October I joined a gym and have been getting back into shape. I ran half a mile for the first time ever last week. I've lost about 20 pounds, which has been kind of a stagnant number for the last few months but I thought about it, and lifting (as much as I dearly, dearly love it - I actually do, that's not even sarcasm) and biking just build my leg muscles and make me bulky, so I figured I'd give running a shot. Why not? so today I finished my first full day on that program after not quite being able to finish it the other day. I don't necessarily want to make it to 5K, but if I could run a mile without stopping that'd be a-okay with me. It'd help me with my workout plan because I tend to plateau pretty easily and quickly, hence the stagnation in actual weight loss.

Anyway... I didn't post this to get a pat on the back from everybody in case that's what it sounded like, I was just kind of excited about this program since really, I really, really suck at running. Really. And I wanted to keep people who might also benefit from something like that posted on how well it works out for me, since I am generally so disinclined toward anything that involves... running. *shudder.

I don't usually do this, but...

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 23:50:39 GMT

why not... work is slow and I feel random.

I pulled this from someone else's lj and figured people like reading random trivia and I have all kinds of it, so... 25 things about me.

1. I have this bizarre phobia that shit is gonna hit my ankles. Not in any sort of logical way, like... if a car is coming and I'm crossing the road I imagine that the wheels are aiming to roll up my ankle somehow. This makes no sense. I can't walk in front of shopping carts at the grocery store and the idea of revolving doors hitting the back of my feet scares the living bejebus out of me.
2. If I had all kinds of free time I would do absolutely nothing with it. The key to my productivity has everything to do with maintaining momentum... once the hamster falls off the wheel, all is lost.
3. I just giggled when I wrote that because I pictured a hamster wheel spinning really fast and chucking the hamster off of it.
4. It irritates the piss out of me when people talk to me like I'm less capable because of my gender (and I know when they're doing it).
5. It irritates me even more when I react to that happening and they say something like "oh, you must have your period or something". Unless it's a friend of mine joking around with me.
6. I'm not real judgmental with people unless they're assholes to me because of the reasons someone would be judgmental with them. People always have seemed to be drawn to me because I don't really give a fuck what they do/believe and generally find behavior to be kind of fascinating.
7. I have a sort of innate ability to understand behavior above and beyond what I learned studying it in school. This is informative and fascinating equally as often as it is disappointing and hard for me to deal with.
8. I feel self-conscious sometimes when I talk about that sort of thing because I feel like it sounds egotistical. I'll always, for that reason, keep on hand a list of things I'm terrible at (e.g. roller-skating, chemistry, running, remembering to eat during the day so I don't stuff my face when I get home from work right before I go to bed or right before I'm supposed to be at the gym).
9. I gain muscle like she-hulk when I indulge myself and lift weights when I'm working out. I LOVE being at the gym and I super-crazy-ridiculous love lifting weights and I have a secret wish to see how extreme I could get if I really lifted as much as I was capable of/wanted to but I don't want to look like shrek, so I don't.
10. I sort m&ms into geometric patterns that have radial symmetry before eating them.
11. I really get a kick out of the appearance of mathematical patterns in nature. For instance: I've been obsessed lately with romanescos, the cauliflower thing that is in the pattern of a logarithmic spiral.
12. I miss working in radio in some capacity and think of that period in my life fondly despite the fact that I really haven't kept in touch with any of the people I worked with and they haven't kept in touch with me, particularly, either, and really, I have no idea if any of them even really liked me.
13. I enjoy sleeping more than I feel like I should.
14. I dislike being around groups of people that are larger than 4-6 people, particularly if there are people I don't know.
15. I don't have a driver's license and have never owned a car but I am a pretty experienced driver.
16. I'm from the U.P. and I miss it often, 15 feet of snow and all. I'd like to spend a few weeks a year working up there again at some point in my future.
17. I think it's really funny watching videos of strippers falling off poles.
18. I made my own dress almost every year I went to the prom in high school.
19. I have a short attention span for sitting in front of the computer and never make it through these things.

eat a dick

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 24 Jan 2009 01:42:08 GMT

there are some people who are just such complete shitbags they shouldn't even be allowed to interact with others in some capacities.

that's all I have to say about that.

anywayyyyyy.... work is going terrific, making decent money for a change and doing decent work... I really dig it. I can't imagine doing anything I love more, really. We've got shit pretty much straightened out now and the communication is better and we all get along really well. Also, my friends fucking rule. My roommate and some of his friends went bowling, played euchre and drank beer last night and it was absolutely amazing. I love those people dearly and I wish I could articulate how much they mean to me, really... I have the coolest roommate on the face of the freaking planet.

bleh.

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 13 Sep 2008 18:24:34 GMT

I feel like a lot of people would explain a bad mood on the weather but really it's like a million other things...

Bleh. just feel lame today, homesick, lonely, icky, frustrated.

cheery, eh? :p

suspension without suspense

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 04:31:49 GMT

Our shop's summer barbecue was last night. Our boss also built a suspension rig, which for those of you unfamiliar is a construct that allows for people to be suspended by flesh hooks. I've seen it done, but had never tried it myself. I did it yesterday (there are pics on myspace and facebook if anyone is curious to see me hanging around). It was really intense but a really cool experience. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time because the first one I ever saw, which was almost three years ago now, was when I decided to get into the body modification industry, so it was sort of a coming-full-circle thing for me, and one of the people I saw suspending was the one pulling me up.

cool stuff. I feel pretty freakin' amazing.

stolen from leeta...

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 21:24:11 GMT

I don't usually do these but this one looks kinda fun and interactive...

1) Make a comment and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a restaurant I would take you to.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. (as if I can actually force you to. I WOULD like you to at least do this for me though).

caution: girly content

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 21:20:42 GMT

This may, in fact, be the most girly thing I have or will ever say: our shop barbecue/suspension show is on saturday, and, rather than being worried about the notion of there being big stainless steel hooks in my back that I'll be hanging from, I'm worried about what I'm going to *wear*.

:p

regardless..

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 14:30:20 GMT

no matter how strange things seem to be and how my outlook gets, it seems like there's never a time where people can't still surprise me (in a good way).

<3 I love you guys.

boring

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 14:02:44 GMT

4th of july was extremely dull, I didn't do anything aside from sit around reading, which isn't so bad but I've been having such a hard time concentrating lately that it was mostly for naught... It's been a while I think since my last actual update on here, so here goes:

- I'm crabby because my device for loading music on my mp3 player inexplicably refuses to open.
- I feel a lot dumber lately and I don't know why, exactly... not as much intellectual stimulation as I need, maybe? I hope I don't just progressively get dumber as I get older :p that'd be a drag.

more importantly:
- my employment dry spell is not ongoing - I work at Art and Soul now and I really couldn't be happier with where I'm at. I wish I could have gone back a year and told myself that things really would, in fact, be fine. =) The people there are rockin' neat-o awesome and hopefully things will continue down this path for a while.
- I've even made some friends lately, which is also nifty.
- Kim and Levi visited, yay! it was awesome. I pwned @ bowling, which... well.. just doesn't make any sense. I attribute it to the groping ;)

sleepless nights

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Wed, 23 Apr 2008 10:13:08 GMT

it's 6am and I can't sleep. I got a dog today and he doesn't seem to want to sleep either, which might be part of it :p It's easy to see why people sometimes can relate better to animals than other people - they're happy to see you regardless of what they think of you, because ... well, they don't really have the capacity to reflect on your character beyond your immediate actions toward them. That can be a nice change of pace.

I saw an advertisement today on facebook, of all places, that made me think of things in my life that have come and gone that I regret, those nagging little things that you can't change anymore but still every now and again come back to make you feel a little sick inside. Reminds me of a quote from one of my favorite movies: "I'm saying you've already done plenty of things to regret, you just don't know what they are. It's when you discover them, when you see the folly in something you've done, and you wish that you had it do over, but you know you can't, because it's too late. So you pick that thing up, and carry it with you to remind you that life goes on, the world will spin without you, you really don't matter in the end. Then you will gain character, because honesty will reach out from inside and tattoo itself across your face."

I've been picking up things and carrying them with me lately, probably some function of aging and the state of transition in my life at the moment. I don't think my outlook on a lot of those things has changed a whole lot but the way I deal with things has, and that really makes all the difference in the world.

Beating the cynic back into me

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Wed, 17 Nov 2004 20:48:27 GMT

Did anyone read about the new burger hardees is marketing that's like 1420 calories by itself? On the one hand, yuck; on the other hand, it probably tastes really good. I saw Supersize Me recently though, and that gave me a pretty bad attitude about eating fast food burgers and the other stuff they sell. If you need something to dissuade you from eating fast food, watch that movie.

I really dig living in Kalamazoo, but I've noticed a steady decline since I've been here in the number of people I talk to on any kind of a regular basis. It kind of makes me feel like I should have moved into the dorms or something.

It's just overall kind of lame about how people can't seem to find an interest in talking to you once you're not in their immediate vicinity anymore.

*shrug... I guess all that means is that they weren't really my friends to begin with and the whole experience was just a situational illusion of some kind. This kind of thing is not good for my self-esteem.

On the plus side, I'm going to visit a grad school this weekend - western illinois university. Sean's going to check out Palmer Chiropractic, so I figured I'd stop by and see if the school is someplace I'd like to go. I had to ditch a test, but it was only in my comm. class, which I could pass blindfolded being beat over the head by a monkey with a brick. It's basically something I already had in all my other bazillion communication courses, except without the fun cultural studies part.

It's really warm down here, which is a nice change of pace from my previous life in the antarctic gale-force wind tunnel.

and on a final note: fuck all y'all who do things just to pad your resume. You know who you are.

Check this out

gorillainterrupted@gmail.com — Tue, 09 Nov 2004 20:40:18 GMT

check this out and spread it around - maybe it'll help:

http://www.sorryeverybody.com/

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